PRETTY, GOOD, LIAR.

"I like to think that I was created, for a special purpose." - Beyonce

Notes

Soulless.

Tom: Did you ever do this, you think back on all the times you’ve had with someone and you just replay it in your head over and over again and you look for those first signs of trouble? 

 - 500 Days of Summer

I shouldn’t be mad. I shouldn’t be sad. I shouldn’t let myself down.

I asked myself countless of times, why did I ever allow myself to be stuck in this position, hopeless. Why is it that in front of everyone else, I make it look effortless, I make it look as though I resented you with all of my heart…but when you really come back, I start to tremble, wondering why the hell would you appear in my life again. I tell myself to not be the slightest bothered with your presence…but I can’t. I must have been a heartless person before in my past life. I must have been going around, making people feel worthless and wished they were never born. Look at where I am right now. Liar, in and out. I told myself that I was not going to think about you, let alone be bothered where you’re dead or alive. I told myself to hate you, for letting me become like this. I’ve got no one, no one. It gets lonelier, day by day. Its as if I could hear the silence within me. No matter how much I try to forget, I must have clumsily allowed a small part of me to not forget you. There’s so many things that I’m sorry about. I’m sorry for not leaving so soon, I’m sorry for making it so complicated, I’m sorry for making myself look vulnerable…I’m sorry, for living this way. This is what I’ve become. I simply won’t allow myself to love. I don’t wanna fall in love with anyone. Love shouldn’t hurt but I don’t know what is the thing that’s hurting me, every single day. If you love someone, you wouldn’t hurt them. You just wouldn’t.

In the words of Joe Duket,

“What has faded, is already lost…”

- Z


Notes

TRAX - Blind. 

Victoria did it for me. Her acting is superb. Such a sad song, but nice to listen to.

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“You’re all that I ever know,
When you smile all my face always seems to glow,
You turned my life around,
You picked me up when I was down,
You’re all that I’ve ever known,
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down
Say…you’re all that I’ve ever known
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me to..”

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Dedicated to all the woman who has been hurt. “Young girl don’t cry, I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall.”           - Christina Aguilera Sometimes, you just gotta tell yourself that you will be ok. There will be a time when you can move on without looking back. There should not be any regrets but you will not be spared from that intense pain that you feel in your chest. That feeling like no one in this world could ever understand how you feel, no matter how much they try to. Suffering in silence hurts much more than an open wound. Time heals, but only if you let yourself. I chose to move on after years of wondering what went wrong and why did I let myself go that far and made myself suffer at the end. There will always be a time when you are walking alone and for that five minutes or so, every single thing flashes right across you. We have a choice to forget it, but letting go, it is never easy. There is no manual to it, how do you it? I can never figure out how the heart works. But I am truly, sorry for putting it through so much pain, that I have built a wall around me, not letting anyone in. Matters of the heart is definitely not a walk in the park. But I do know one thing. I should not allow myself to drown in my own misery. I am worthy of man’s love, so do you. - Z iamthecrime: Tired of these games (by Art By Doc)

Dedicated to all the woman who has been hurt.

“Young girl don’t cry, I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall.”           - Christina Aguilera

Sometimes, you just gotta tell yourself that you will be ok. There will be a time when you can move on without looking back. There should not be any regrets but you will not be spared from that intense pain that you feel in your chest. That feeling like no one in this world could ever understand how you feel, no matter how much they try to. Suffering in silence hurts much more than an open wound. Time heals, but only if you let yourself. I chose to move on after years of wondering what went wrong and why did I let myself go that far and made myself suffer at the end. There will always be a time when you are walking alone and for that five minutes or so, every single thing flashes right across you. We have a choice to forget it, but letting go, it is never easy. There is no manual to it, how do you it? I can never figure out how the heart works. But I am truly, sorry for putting it through so much pain, that I have built a wall around me, not letting anyone in. Matters of the heart is definitely not a walk in the park. But I do know one thing. I should not allow myself to drown in my own misery.

I am worthy of man’s love, so do you. - Z

iamthecrime:

Tired of these games (by Art By Doc)

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Life could have been simpler, screw all the complications in our life. But, no, we’ll definitely have to face a certain kind of shit along the way. I’m not saying I’m not ok being alone, but I guess it’d feel nice to have someone who loves you, just the way you love them. I’ve lost that kind of feeling.  - Z

Life could have been simpler, screw all the complications in our life. But, no, we’ll definitely have to face a certain kind of shit along the way. I’m not saying I’m not ok being alone, but I guess it’d feel nice to have someone who loves you, just the way you love them. I’ve lost that kind of feeling. 

- Z

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